We were 18. It was dizzying and exciting and glorious. He was quiet and shy and had a floppy fringe. We used to stare at each other across the maths class. We turned to mush around each other. We would talk for hours. All the typical stuff.
Then he disappeared. One day he didnt come to school. He messaged me saying he wasn't good enough for me and he was broken. That was it. I heard he went to an institution to help him with his depression. I saw him in tesco when I was 21 and we spoke and we took each others breath away all over again, in the fruit aisle. I had a boyfriend at the time and was planning a year working abroad. We never met again.
Now I am 32, happily married, 2 kids, successful career. The whole package. I think about him all the time. I have this desperate need to know what happened to him, if he is happy, if he is even alive. I have trolled the Internet dozens of times with his name and nothing has showed up. I have gone through online death notices, social media, even messaging people he was friends with in school asking if they knew him anymore but even they dont check their social media. I have found nothing.
I am like a crazy stalker, but i just need to know if he is ok. How do you find someone? I know I should leave it and forget him but he haunts me.
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HowIsThisOk · 27/11/2023 13:31
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