please be kind - unwanted pregnancy

[needingsupport]

I have just taken a pg test and it is positive. I am devastated. I have two incredible children and have recently felt that life has been at an even, steady, calm and wonderful place having suffered badly with depression in the past. with the two children I have, we can live within our means but 3 would always mean stretching ourselves in a way that I fear I might always resent. My littlest is only 9.5 months. Although my husband and I have not had unprotected sex, sometimes we didn't put the condom on straight away (don't scold me please!).

What I want to know is what to do next. I know that I can't be a mother to any more children and I know that I need to get a termination. If you have done this, please could you share any (don't want to say positive but) advice. Do I have to see my doctor, how soon can I do it? What is the difference between a surgical and medical abortion? If you have had an abortion and hated it, please don't share your story with me tonight... I am still reeling. Of course, I will consider everything carefully before doing anything but feel enough guilt and anxiety on my own.

Thank you in advance,

[GoodnessKnows]

Not judging. Seriously hard for you. Hand holding. You'll do what's right for you and your family. Don't think there is an easy answer/ option. Don't judge yourself by social pressures and concerns. Xxx

[BarryManilowsNose]

My doctor was crap and I wish I hadn't bothered To even tell her. I went straight to Marie stopes and within a few days it was done. No pain relief, definitely no general anaesthetic! It was over within an hour (including counselling before on the day) I went home and felt normal.
The plunge in hormones after can make you feel quite low but this is normal and you will come out the other side.
It was a massive decision for me. Which is why I never beat myself up over it because I believe I made the right decision.
Counselling is available afterwards either online on phone or in person.
Four years on I obviously think about what happened but I know it was the right thing to do.
You WILL be ok!