Long story short - I live a short flight from my mum and rest of family. Mum is dying. She's been living with cancer for years. She also has Ms, anxiety and (perhaps not surprisingly) depression. Symptoms getting worse. She's never been the easiest of people to get along with, but has gotten much worse over the past couple of years. She's cut herself off from virtually everyone she knows - apart from me, my brother and her ex.
Today my brother took her to sort her will (again) and to organise her funeral. She has said no service, no one there apart from me and my brother, cheapest of everything. I know that we'll do what she wants, but I feel as if this is just so selfish of her. To me funerals aren't for the dead, they are for the living. To deny her sisters and brothers the chance to say goodbye to her? To deny my brother and I the comfort and support of our families?
Added to that is the guilt I have of not seeing her - but every time I've visited lately she's ended up shouting at me and us falling out.
Im handling this by ignoring it. :(