My mum is on end of life care. She's been given 2-3 weeks at best. She has cancer and dementia and thankfully doesn't know what's going on.
I'm broken, I'm being practical, but I feel empty and numb, and I'm frightened. I'm a mum, a wife, I work full time and I have a very supportive husband.
I don't know what to expect at the end. I don't want it to be the end, and I know I need to decide whether I want to be there at the end or not.
I want to protect my dad from what is coming, and I don't know how to best help him; and the overwhelming feeling is to run away and hide.
I want to be a child again and have my mum wrap me in her protective bubble and the truth is I've already lost my mum as I knew her due to the dementia, and I can't bare to lose her all over again.
I'm sorry I'm aware I'm rambling. I'm sat here with tears streaming wishing it would all go away.