Had a call from DMs Care home this morning to say that the GP has now put her on a palliative care path because her health has rapidly declined over the last few weeks. She has multiple health issues and is bed bound with severe communication issues but the carers have looked after her for a few years and confirm she’s changed a lot. She’s not well but refuses any kind of investigation and does not want to leave the home. We’ve always joked that DM will outlast us all in spite of her problems so this is all unexpected.
The care staff are lovely and doing their best to keep our and her spirits up but they have that tone that tells me they’re humouring me rather than agreeing and they believe it could be near the end for her.
Don’t know what I’m asking really because no one knows if this is it or if she’ll make a recovery back to her normal grump self in a week or two. I don’t think she wants to die but I don’t think she particularly wants to carry on as she is. Life is so cruel, I think I’m hoping that she just slips away one night and her suffering will be over finally. Her life was not a happy one and I feel so guilty that she will never experience happiness the way I have.