Hi everyone this is my first message but I need to talk to someone, I have a husband and 2 children, my children are staying with their nan my husbands mum this week and Im missing them so much. My husband does try and I love him but he's not the easiest to talk too, he can be very distant and he's been the cause of a lot of stress in our marriage because of money. He's at work at the moment and doesn't finish until 7 so I am sat at home alone, I don't have any friends either.
My dad is 69 years old my mum walked out on us about 15 years ago, he lives with my brother and I live an hours drive away. He has suffered with health problems for as long as I can remember and I can never really remember a time in my life where I haven't been worried about him but in the last few years it has been one thing after another, I don't really want to go into the details because it just upsets me.
Every weekend I visit with my 2 boys because other than seeing us and hospital visits he really doesn't do much, he gets very down has no friends or family other than us and I feel so guilty that I can't be there for him more.
He was admitted to hospital early A.M yesterday and he was hoping he would be out today but he text me after my driving lesson to say that they want to do tests and his words were Im in a bad way and love you. He never really tells us he loves us, I know he does but he never says it I think it comes from the way his dad was with him when he was a boy.
Im going to try and visit him today I will have to get the bus and a 20 min walk away but I just don't know what to do. He looked so frail when I saw him yesterday and I find it so hard.
My brother who lives with him I know cares but he doesn't really help, my dad has been to hospital just about once a week for the last 3 or 4 weeks and he doesn't help him he just goes off to work he even made us drive an hour to my dads house to pick up a bag when he could have driven there in 20 mins he sat there watching tv and didn't even think to visit him. Ive text him today and explained things and said I think you should visit and he just said ok.
3 years ago my dad went to Barbados and while he was there became very ill, when he got home he was in intensive care my brother cried when i told him but again he just kept going off to work and leaving us to do everything. We had 2 weeks off work and he did over time.
Sorry if Im rambling I just don't know where to turn or how to cope