Miss the person my Mum used to be

[slipperandpjsmum]

I feel really, really guilty posting this but I am hoping I will get responses from people who feel the same.

My Mum was always my best friend, we were so close and had a great relationship. She is now 88 and things are really hard. I miss who she used to be. When I speak to her she gets muddled all the time, talks overs me, never listens to me and just wants to talk about her ill health.

I feel this terrible sense of loss that she slipped away without me realising she was going.

She comes round to our home a lot but having 4 dc (the youngest of whom is 3) is really hard work. She repeats things over and over and gets confused. Recently my dd was telling her she was really upset about something and my Mum started laughing, which was difficult.

I don't want to sound horrible but the responsibility of everything is really getting to me. I miss my best friend so much.

Op thank you for putting this post. I am up unable to sleep because I feel so sad about my dm and df My df has dementia and is fading away, he anxious and so reliant n my mum itbisnstressing and exhausting her. I have been v unwell and frankly am sitting here crying wanting my mum, who is my bf to be there and she can't. I am also v worried about her health.