Hi everyone, just looking for some advice really. I am 29 years old and looking to go back to college but struggle at my age to apply myself to anything and concentrate.
I’ve been thinking about going back to college for a few years now since having my child, in the past I’ve been to college and uni and really struggled. I really struggle to keep my mind on something for more than five minutes. My mother was looking through my old school reports and from year 9 onwards they all say I can’t concentrate, easily distracted, one even said ‘it seemed I rather liked to be in a world of my own doodling rather than learning’ kind of hurt my feelings after all these years.
I scrapped by in school. I then went to college to get a distinction in computing, went to extra lessons out my table, took me three years but I got there. Then went to uni and done three years first then second year twice and dropped out. Failed every exam every course work, I become so depressed because I was so frustrated like why can’t I just do it??? Would sit in lectures or try do course work and dig my nails into my legs to get myself to pay attention. Had a lecturer that always picked on me for answers cause he knew full well I weren’t listening so I just stopped going. I had counselling and they said it’s anxiety/depression so I ended up on anti depressants for years and they just made me feel numb. I feel like I really did try and it upsets me because I’m not stupid and got into so much debt.
Is anyone else like this or was like this in the past? What things did you do that helped? Or am I just one of those people just not made for the educational system? Really annoy myself as how can a nearly 30 year old be acting like a toddler!?
Just want to better me and my child’s life and get a better job with money so need better qualifications.