In 2021 I was diagnosed with anorexia. At my lowest weight I was 38.5kg ( I'm 5'2 )
I honestly didn't even realise I had a problem. For me, it wasn't about weight. It was about control. Being able to control somthing in my life when everything else seemed so out of control
My 10 year old got measured and weighed the other day and she is 37kg. I can't believe that was basically my weight a few years ago.
It's been a very difficult journey and I'm ngl the last 2 years have been incredibly hard. I was warned that my weight would mostly go to my stomach ( storing it ) until my body realised it didn't need to store it anymore. I'd been walking round like a stick with a little pot belly 🤦♀️😅
I'm now at a stage where I'm a healthy weight for my height ( I actually don't know how much I weigh. I just know I don't fit into a size 4/6 anymore and a 10 is comfortable on me.
I've got boob's again. I've got a bum again. Curves in the right places. I'm no where near as cold as I used to be, my hair has got thicker,
I still have that little voice in the back of my head, but I can ignore it now. It used to be so loud. It used to scream at me. It's so much quieter now. Like a whisper
It's difficult because you know it's unhealthy you know your harming yourself. But the joy and satisfaction it brings you put weighs the cons.
I can't talk to my family and friends about it. People don't get it. And most of them are overweight so I don't feel like I can talk to them about it
But I'm really bloody proud of myself. It's been really hard to get to this stage. It's so hard to fight an internal battle because no one can help you really but yourself.
I got really upset a few weeks ago because I had to buy all new clothes as literally nothing fit me. I felt so uncomfortable at first ( I hadn't looked at myself in months l, covered up mirrors, didn't look at myself when showering ect ) it was a shock at first 😅
We can recover x