Heading back to old habits - bulimia

[Iamanon55]

I need some help ~ things going terribly in my life ~ feels like everything is falling apart! Really struggling! Just binge ate two big bags of crisps and all I want to do is go and purge. I'm in my 50's and haven't been bulimic since my 30's but I have such a strong desire. I feel absolutely disgusted that I have eaten so much rubbish and I just want to get rid of it!

Don't do it OP. You're stressed, you ate some rubbish - that's not the end of the world. You can get back on the horse of eating better tomorrow. But it's a very slippery slope back to bulimia. Don't feel disgusted with yourself - there is nothing disgusting here. It's one bad day, it's ok but please don't be tempted back into dangerous habits.

No No No. Are you in any counselling etc. Any mental health intervention honey?

Thank you both so much. Not getting help just now but feel I need to as things are spiralling and I can see myself falling back into old ways quite easily.

What is all the stress but every day at the minute can feel stressful, money , work kids, relationships, the news... do you know what I mean?

Absolutely. Just feeling a bit helpless and unable to help the ones I love the most and I guess purging is a way of re-establishing some control in my life. A slippery slope though.

Hi again. Control what you can. What can you control tonight? Bedtime? A Bath? you can control all of that unless something is stopping you?

Yes get yourself some help OP, purging feels like something you can control - until you can't stop and it has control of you. Be kind to yourself, you're obviously a kind person to be worried about others so don't forget to give yourself some of that kindness too.

What about the ones that love you? Can you reach out. I am sure they will be there for you..

Thanks. I am going to go and have a shower and then go to bed and leave this awful awful day behind. Tomorrow's another day.

Good idea OP, look after yourself, tomorrow is another day. I hope it's a better one for you, get yourself some support.

Just feels like the family is imploding. My young adult kids are going through some real heartbreaking, life changing stuff just now with having failed exams at uni and having to rethink their futures and I just feel powerless to help them and it's all just getting a bit much if I'm honest. The binging was a direct result of how I felt after a massive argument with the kids and my husband and I just felt so disgusting and crap afterwards and the urge was so so strong. You're all very kind.

Cool. It is really hot tonight and I am not good in heat to be honest. Seek some support even if it is here please. You sound great and actually realising that you may be getting back into compulsive behaviour actually shows you are in control of choices. Cool down and have a good sleep.

Excuse me you adult children and you husband? They make their own choices which you have brought them up to do. Failed exams nothing to do with you. Sorry. You sound like you brought up children to be able to go to university? They failed the exams themselves unless something else is in the mix. But I don't think so tell them .