strange eating habits

[beccalt]

hi, so for years i’ve always dealt with being the “skinny one” up until pregnancy, gaining 2 stone, after pregnancy i then lost 3 stone in the space of 4 months and i am scared i am going back to my old eating habits. i just don’t eat, its not that im starving myself i just feel disgusting if i eat especially if anyone else is around even my partner. i sometimes tell him i haven’t eaten all day when i have or vice versa. i dont understand why i do this, i know ive had a history of anorexia for a few years around age 13-17 so i know i dont have the best relationship with food however i just think its strange for me to be lying about not eating and hiding the fact that im eating some days and other days lying that i have eaten when i havent, i didnt know if anyone had any advice or insight at all because im so confused with myself.

It would be a good idea to contact Beat, they have a good helpline.

I’m wondering if this the ED voice talking and making up stories of if you have or haven’t eaten. Idk how much of an insight you have into the anorexia from your teens or if you were given treatment. I’m thinking perhaps your parents were involved at the time so maybe they could help now.

The standard is to eat 3 meals 3 snacks a day. It’s important to eat breakfast as that kick starts your hunger for the day. If you continue to restrict like this, it sounds as if things are going to get tricky really soon.

Please reach out for help. And see your gp for a referral to the local ED service.

my parents used to be part of the problem and i no longer speak to them, and yeah i havent received help for it at all, called someone and just gonna wait for the referral, hopefully it will be okay soon, want to get better for my baby boy :)

I’m sorry your parents are part of the problem. Your baby does indeed need you. It sounds as if you’re motivated to get better for your little on and yourself. Try Tabitha Farrar. She’s written a few books and has a website. She doesn’t believe in therapy and healed herself. Not sure I agree with no therapy. But there’s a lot of info in this book to get you started and will give you some insight into why you’re eating the way you do. It’s important to get some insight so that you can bullet proof yourself for the future so you kick this to the can once and for all. Tabitha farrar also wrote a book titled fear of weight gain.
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