I'm pregnant and binging again

[whathannahsaid]

I've had binge eating disorder for a long time, the only time I seem to get it under control is when I restrict all sugar and processed food and only eat real foods which works for a while but then another binge will happen and that binge can last a day to a couple of months.
I'm pregnant now and 14 weeks and since I've found out at about 6 weeks I've started another binge which I just can't break.
I think it's the sense of being pregnant so it won't show as usually by now I'd be finding my jeans tight weighing myself and snapping out of it but I just can't.
Every morning I wake up forgive myself and promise a new start from today and fail.
I am feeling so low, I just can't stop this time.

Oh no that's horrible I know how that feels. Desperate to stop but can't. Don't panic. You can get back to not feeling horribly compulsive. Did something trigger it?

I mean emotions wise

3 meals and 2-3 snacks a day OP, that should break the urge to binge.
Try not to be so hard on yourself too as that is counterproductive.
Good luck.

I can't think of anything that triggers it, just an urge.

I read a really good book a while back called overcoming binge eating by Christopher G Fairburn. I felt so optimistic and he suggested three meals and I had a little diary to account for every meal and then by the end of the week I was binging again, it really is disheartening.
It's just sugar and now I feel like I'm craving it and being pregnant sort of normalises the cravings.

Were you trying to restrict the number of calories in those three meals though OP as that won’t work if you have BED?

Not so much counting calories but I was avoiding sugar so trying to eat healthier meals.

If you included a couple of snacks then you could have a small chocolate bar or mousse or something else you fancied so you wouldn’t be depriving yourself so much and would have less physiological urge to binge.
Im no expert, I just have BED myself and see an eating disorder psychiatrist.

Thank you @PervOrNoPerv I will try again and be a bit stronger this time.
I know I have to do this for my baby.

Good luck @whathannahsaid
Focus on getting into a structured eating plan and that should really reduce the urge to binge.

@PervOrNoPerv
Does your ED psychiatrist help with a 3 Meals 3 snacks meal plan?
I need to implement something similar for my DD who is struggling with BED.
We have been to the ED clinic twice but somehow we don't get help.
I am thinking of seeking private help but they are really pricey.
Wondering if there is a way to get a meal plan that isn't restrictive so the urge to binge is reduced.
At the same time, she is bordering on obese so need to make sure it is also healthy

Xx

Hi @DarkChocHolic, we haven’t spoken very much about the actual contents of the meals, probably because it is more important to focus on just managing 3 meals plus the snacks. They do have ED dieticians there too though so they could help with the details of your DD meal plan if required.
The focus is on stabilising weight initially rather than losing and it is quite likely that it could go up before settling down. Good luck, it isn’t easy.