Struggling with eating

[Sparklebelle1024]

Hi, I’m new to this board but not new to mumsnet been around at least 11 years!

ive always struggled with my weight and eating but this past year it’s got out of control. I’ve went from overweight to barely eating (I’ve lost 6.5 stone in 6/7 months) and still loosing because I just don’t eat, I’m almost passing out daily I have palpitations I have double vision I feel shaky, I’m absolutely freezing all the time to the point I’m blue but I can’t bring myself to eat anymore than I am. A few people very close to me have noticed and are hassling me to eat but in all honesty I’m terrified of being overweight again. My mum took me to the doctors and they have referred me somewhere and are saying I’ve developed an eating disorder and in the meantime I’ve to try small things to get more calories in but if I know one day I’ve ate more calories the next day I make sure I eat less. I’m a single parent too so it’s really easy as I’ve no one to “watch me”
people have asked me if I’ve had weight loss surgery it’s been that drastic. I’m also over exercising as well but I don’t know what to do and when I try to speak to the three people that know they tell me I just need to eat they don’t get it
sorry for the big ramble

Has anything changed in the last year which has caused this?

i nearly lost my daughter to cardiac arrest in June and she’s only 10, she’s since had treatment so it shouldn’t happen again but that’s the only thing I can think of that actually coincides with my eating

Maybe you have PTSD from the stress of that?

You need professional help for this OP - you do have an eating disorder. Anorexia is very serious and has a high fatality rate - how long is the referral likely to take?

Your daughter’s illness could certainly be a trigger.

Is she ok now? That is a terrible experience for you. While you wait for treatment could you think about how you could improve your eating so you can take proper care of both of you?

The doctor said she’d mark it as urgent because of the other symptoms I’m having along with the continued weight loss.

she had a pacemaker fitted but that was hard too and I’ve just kind of got on with it without realising this has creeped up on me but I’m at the point now I’m scared to eat cos it will put weight on me and make me overweight again. I literally can not put the food in my mouth
my mum just nips at me about it. I’m so used to not eating I actually feel sick when I eat the little bit I do eat every day