Binge Eating Distress

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Hi all
I think i just want a hand hold :(

I had bulimia as a teenager and managed to get through this myself. I was able to focus on healthy exercise habits and this became an important part of my identity (sport, activity etc). Didn’t have any issues after this for about 15 years.

I became very unwell last year and as I was bedridden and couldn’t cook etc, i started getting takeaways which i’ve never really done before as i hate junk food (or did!) unfortunately this triggered all my old issues, and i started binge eating (but without the other bulimic behaviours).

Now i’m in a real low point with my binge eating. I just can’t stop. I’ve gained 2 stone in the past year from bingeing and i recently calculated that i’ve spent nearly £2k on takeaways. I felt so low the other evening and was just sobbing but i couldn’t stop myself from ordering more food and bingeing. Im now bingeing multiple times every evening and it’s like i just can’t control it at all.

I hate myself and my body - i’ve never been so big and my clothes hardly fit. I just feel terrible but i don’t know how to stop.

has anyone else been here - does it get better? I’m really struggling :(

thanks for reading

I'm so sorry to hear you're going through a tough time. I wish I could offer some advise, but I'm afraid I'm in the same situation as you have described and am here to offer a hand hold in solidarity.

You could contact your local ED service for self referral or see your GP & request a referral.
In my area you can self refer for triage/assessment but appreciate it might not be the case elsewhere. The ED service should have a BED pathway. Hope you get the support you need.