Almost 30 years old, Health problems & realising I may have an eating disorder

[dani1394]

Hi all,
I recently reached out to my doctors because for my entire adult and teenage life I’ve struggled with food. I’m actually a bit chubby so I do eat food. The problem is selective eating.
I only eat chips, pasta, pizza as meal foods & only drink cordial & fresh juices, no fizzy drinks.

I'm vegetarian and also don’t eat fish or eggs and haven’t since I was a child. I have asked my doctor for nutrition drink prescription but I first have to have bloods and a referral to a nutritionist. I feel pathetic & also have serious health conditions & a lot of stress in my life for many years. I’m very overwhelmed by everything as a whole ( which is a lot )

Going back to childhood, I suffered some abuse surrounding food. Forced to sit at the table all night & made to cry, had toys taken away from me & was also physically hurt. I feel like it may have something to do with it, I just don’t know how to force myself out of this position, I want to be healthy & happy. I feel so stuck in this place.

Have you had therapy or talked about it with your therapist? That seems the best place to start

It's good the GP has referred you on. They'll be able to check the impact of your diet and also see if there are underlying reasons for your difficulty with foods. Giving you nutrient drinks wouldn't help, without knowing what's behind your needs.

It's possible your family entirely unintentionally added trauma to your experiences by using old fashioned authoritarian tactics without understanding how that would affect you.

I'd see this as a good thing- the opportunity to understand what's going on with food and how best to approach resolving it.

There could be all sorts of helpful things to learn !

Well done for taking the first steps!

Hi @dani1394
You've done really well to have reached out to the GP. You're not pathetic at all, please don't think that. You sound like a very strong person and have gone through alot. I hope you get the support from the GP that you need, look after yourself xx