Help!!

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I have Emetophobia. Immensely scared of being sick so I restrict my food. I'm trying to get better. I made myself a pasta bake tonight. Pasta, tomato sauce, vegetables and mushrooms with cheese. It was in a glass dish and when I made it i felt a bit nauseous. I have to work myself up to eat so I covered it with a glass lid and left it on the side for about 50/60 mins. Anyway. I ended up eating it but close to the end I sniffed it and it smelt a bit dodgy. Now I'm panicking thinking I've given myself food poisoning. I've been stupidly googling leaving pasta out and my anxiety is through the room. Please if anyone can offer reassurance, I know I probably sound stupid but I am absolutely petrified, crying and feeling so sick. This phobia controls my life so much

I would be extremely surprised if that would make you ill. You can eat pasta bake cold and I’ve eaten pasta that’s been left out for a few hours with no ill effects. It doesn’t sound like there’s any meat in it either which means there’s next to no chance of it making you poorly. Hope you feel better soon

OP this sounds absolutely fine and I'm sure you won't be ill. It sounds like this phobia is getting completely out of hand though especially as it is leading to you restricting food. Have you been to the doctors about this? it sounds awful and you shouldn't have to live like this.

It's honestly destroying my life. I've lost almost three stone these last few months. I'm scared to leave the house and eat anything! All the doctors have given me is some anti anxiety but CBT therapy waiting time is 14 months. They've even suggested I get an NG tube before then because I won't survive that long without eating. Thank you so much for replying, I know people must think I'm mental and stupid but it genuinely is huge to me. I hope you're well and having a nice afternoon