My binge eating is getting out of control

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I have suffered with my eating the past few years. I went through a 18-24 month period of eating veeeery little, to the point I became underweight, looked like crap and felt like it too.

The GP put me on antidepressants, which helped for a bit and I started to eat more normally again.

But then I started to go the other way, binging everything in sight. If I ate a cake, chocolate, or anything sugary I would crave more, and then I would think 'well my diet today is fucked, so I may as well eat EVERYTHING.

And then I will. Tonight I ate an ice cream, a muller corner, four pieces of toast and 5 biscuits. This was after my evening meal, and this is actually quite a light binge compared to some days.

I am scared about how much weight I will put on, but I seem to lose control once I'm in that zone.

I have tried books and speaking to BEAT but it doesn't help. I guess I'm looking for solidarity, because I feel so disgusted with myself after a binge and I have physical effects for days.

It sounds hard for you. Can you stop buying ice creams and biscuits, to remove the temptation? Also, lots of protein to keep you full for longer, so hopefully no desire to snack.

It's not me who buys them, but my husband. He then gives them to me and when I say no at first he insists, and I find it hard to resist after so many times! I have asked him not to buy them but he doesn't take any notice.

I'm with you. I have no self control around sugary food and will eat it until I feel sick. I've been recommended a podcast called Brain over Binge which I'm going to try soon. Hoping it works as I feel at a total loss of how to get a handle on this.

I totally get that. I'm the same - as soon as a pack of biscuits/crisps is open the rest are fair game. Trouble is I have quite a few food issues which stem from various health conditions - so many foods SHOULD be off my radar anyway. But I'm now quite elderly so quite frankly I'm beyond caring. However, if I was 40yrs younger I think I would take more care over food choices as it's definitely had an impact on my current mobility levels. You can't put an old head on young shoulders, but do try to get a handle on this. Do some research to find out what will happen to your body if you don't. Think seriously about the implications = what does 'loss of mobility' really mean? It means not being able to get in and out of the bath, not always being able to twist to wipe your bum, not being able to climb stairs or even kerb stones, back problems, knee problems. Retiring early has largely been a waste of time 'cos without your health you're stuffed.

It's not me who buys them, but my husband. He then gives them to me and when I say no at first he insists, and I find it hard to resist after so many times! I have asked him not to buy them but he doesn't take any notice

This behaviour is bullshit. When I confessed to my DP that I had a drinking problem he gave up drinking too on the spot to help me. He shouldn't be pressing these things on you if he knows it's making you miserable!

Beat have got a number of programmes you may be able to refer to. What region are you in?

Have you been to your GP?