I'm just wondering if anyone can relate or if anyone has any advice or understanding?
I'm desperate to lose weight and live a healthier lifestyle - I need to lose about 3 stone. I feel like I am slowly killing myself with the way I am eating - multiple takeaways a week, big portions, cheese on everything plus sugary and high fat snacks. I would imagine my arteries are just cheese strings now. I have 2 amazing children who are very little and I desperately want to set an example to them and also to optimise my chances of being around for them. So it makes me feel very guilty that I keep failing myself and them. I always fear that I am going to die young and then just carry on living like this anyway - what is wrong with me?!
I do well for a week or two but always revert back to the same way. It's a joke. I hate the way I feel and I'm very all or nothing, so I often think there is no point in making an effort with my hair, clothes or anything else if I'm this big. It's like I'm in a constant state of waiting - saying 'when I lose the weight I will...'
I just don't understand why I can't just be consistent and get healthy, If not for me, for my children.
I think I'm looking for some people to relate to and also some real insight into why this is a problem and how I can finally crack it. I'm in my early 30s, 8 months PP so that and lack of sleep does factor in too at the moment. To be honest having takeaway food so easily available is one of my biggest barriers. I have always had a very all or nothing relationship with food and exercise and I just want to crack it for good. Any tips would be great - please go easy on me, I want to learn, I want to do better.
Can I turn this around and reverse the damage I've done to my body?