The curse of the Easter Bunny - binge eating

[GluttonousGorgoyle]

Went to Aldi today and like an idiot bought a million Easter chocolate treats for DD (and potentially any of her friends we might see in April). That was really my intention. I'd somehow totally forgotten what a sugar addicted (currently sugar abstinent in a last ditch effort) glutton i am.

However, now I've got all this chocolate at home and the glutton in me keeps screaming "eat eat EAT!!". I know if I have just one little piece I'll scoff the whole lot down. The same happened over Christmas. It started with a harmless little Christmas cookie and bham, I put on three kg in a month. Kept gorging on the chocolate gifts I'd bought to give other people. Yeah, I know, pathetic.

I just went downstairs and managed to come back up again without touching any of the little Easter treats I bought but then had to fight off a box of Ferrero Rochers that I'd randomly on the window sill in the upstairs landing to be tidied up later. I must have picked it up and put it down again a dozen times before I managed to run into the bedroom.

I've made it into bed now but I can't keep fighting this for another month. All it takes is for the tiredness to just pass that little threshold or a tiny little negative emotion raising it's head and I'll be back in binge city. Maybe I should just throw away all the chocs but I need Easter chocs for DD.

This is so pathetic but what should I do?

(Please no "just have s little piece and stop" remarks. I don't work that way. I've tried but after decades of dealing with my disordered eating I need to accept that this will just never work for me).

Ah I really feel you. I’m in recovery from anorexia and struggle with binging and purging. Christmas/Easter are a nightmare if you have food issues. Does anyone close to you know you are fighting this? My DS bought home a load of Easter chocolate from his granny’s the other day and I had to ask my DH to hide it, from me not my son! I feel huge shame around having to ask, I’ve been in recovery for years, but big ‘forbidden’ sweet items remain a huge trigger for me. However I know the shame I feel in asking for help to remove the trigger foods is less than that I would feel if I ate it and purged. I hate having to live in such fear of food and I can really hear that in your post too. For me, I know that complete abstinence from any kind of food leads to binges - I know that, ideally, I want to be able to incorporate all foods, including chocolate, into my diet so I don’t have urges to binge. What has helped me the most is eating regularly - 3 meals, 3 snacks - regular intervals throughout the day, at least enough calories to maintain your weight. I stick to this religiously. It’s so, so hard.

Sorry, hit post before I’d quite finished! I was going to say, if it were me - I would give the Easter goodies to someone else to look after - a month is a long time to be with this fear. But I understand it’s so hard to confide in someone, it can feel so shameful. I’m sorry you’re struggling with this, I really do understand the nightmare of it all.

Get them out of the house. Blame it on the kids finding them. I nearly bought some today, but then remembered I would eat them all. You could put them in the car for now??

Thanks both..I remarkably (for me) managed to resist the chocs yesterday night but today while having an unpleasant conversation with my mum I caved. I ate all the Easter bunnies and half a box of Ferrero Rocher and now I feel sick.

I've told dh in the past to hide sweets from me but he's away at the moment and I can't tell anyone else. I can't even tell dh the extent of my problem. I'm too ashamed. And we are struggling anyway at the moment with our msrrisge so actually I can't talk to him about anything at all.

@glitteringfishy I'm sorry you are struggling yourself fishy. It just never leaves you isn't it? It's like I checked into hotel California aged 16 and now I can never leave. I'm in my forties.

Uugh...I feel so sick. I hate Ferrero Rochers.

Can I just start again? From now?.just because I fell.off the wagon doesn't mean I can't start again right? It gets harder every time. Everytime I fall my resolve for the next round reduces.

I think my psychiatrist (for ADHD) has referred me for counseling. That might help..or I think she said I need to self refer? Oh damn I haven't been able to do that in tej years and now I don't even know what she said last time. It requires a long form to be filled out and I just can't do it. I've tried. Uggh I feel so sick

@Snug, keeping them in the car is a genius idea. Thank you. I will do that (with whatever is left).