So I have never wrote about this before but I need some help maybe a bit of clarity.
Backstory
I have always had issues with eating from a very young age was extremely over weight , purging etc , in my 30s after weighing in at 24 stone I managed to shed 12 stone and what I thought was being healthy ( I no now I was restrictive no fat carbs no meal
Over 200 cals etc) then I fell pregnant and was diagnosed with pregnancy anorexia I was eating hand full of food a day , and went from 12.4 during pregnancy to 9.1
Anyway got help but I now find my self over weight again .
The issue I have at the moment besides being over weight is I woke up a few weeks back and have literally ate nothing but a lettuce leaf 4 cups of coffee with milk water and occasional squash since
I can't I tried i wretch panic and now I think if I start eating I gain weight it's like a vicious circle and I can't work out why the only change is a Someone I have grown close too , he hasn't mentioned my weight yet ( infact suffers with being overweight himself )
Is this a start of something awful or do you think it's gonna pass
Just to add I do have an appointment next week at the surgery