Every now and then, I will eat too much and if I feel uncomfortably full, I will make myself sick. I’m posting because I feel really confused about this and unsure whether it’s something I need to address or if it’s completely harmless.
I’ve definitely had times in my life where I’ve restricted foods and times when I’ve lost a lot of weight. I’m at a strange phase now where I really don’t feel comfortable in my body, but want to become pregnant again so I feel like what’s the point losing weight. I’m not overweight I’m about a size 10 but feel more myself at a size 8. I lost a baby quite far into pregnancy this year and then also had another earlier miscarriage a couple months after so I’ve been through a lot this year.
This pattern of behaviour has been on and off for a couple of years. I may not do this for months on end even a year. I would say I’ve had 2-3 episodes in the past few months. But the thing is I never plan to eat too much and never plan to be sick. I just eat too much then feel really full and to relieve the discomfort I’ll be sick then feel better. Part of me says this is totally fine - you just ate too much so you’re making yourself feel better. I never plan to be sick to rid myself of calories, it’s more for the physical feeing of discomfort. Would appreciate anyone’s thoughts as I feel confused about it. I suppose deep down I don’t think it’s an overly healthy thing to be doing but just don’t know if it’s something to be worried about or if I’m over reacting