Just posting for myself really but would love others to join in and share their stories of recovery too! Just need somewhere to talk through the ups and down :)
I'm in my early 30's and have always had a disfunctional relationship with food, looking back I assume it stems from a Mum who put so much emphasis on weight and still obsesses about it to this day. As a result I've been overweight pretty much my whole life. I've tried several "diets" and lost 7st with Slimming World but when I hit my target and was given wider scope I couldn't reign it in and regained 3 of those. It taught me nothing about controlling my eating habits and led to an unhealthy obsession with good and bad foods which wasn't very useful!
So here I am, a few years down the line feeling embarrassed because I "failed" but when I started reading more and trying to understand my feelings around it - it's pretty clear I have BED with bullemic episodes.
I'm trying not to focus on my size (which is making me miserable) because I need to sort the mental side or I'll forever be stuck in a cycle of back and forth which I don't want.
Sorry for banging on, I just needed to get it out there. Say it "out loud" I guess.
I've started journaling and am following the 5 steps as a starting point. I need to do this now, for my kids and myself.
I'm with that effort!
I can beat this!
I WILL beat this!