I've always had a problem with addiction. It always started with my weight, I was an overweight child who turned to bulimia in my late teens. At uni I would calorie count and eat no more than 400 cals a day some weeks, binge eat and purge others. Then when I started adulting I started drinking because it was another way to self sabotage. At first there was nothing of me because I was over exercising to make up for going out, and drinking at night instead of eating. But overtime I put on a lot of weight when my drinking became more of a problem. I'm 2.5 months sober, because I stopped drinking as soon as I found out I was pregnant. - This has weirdly come so easily to me (which has never happened before, being in and out of rehab) but now once again I've swapped one addiction for the other and I can't stop overeating, feeling guilty, and then making myself sick. The worst part is I've been bulimic on/off for so long (11 years give or take) that it comes so easily and naturally to me - I literally can make myself sick without putting my fingers down my throat. In fact sometime I eat so much that my body encourages it.
The bottom line is I'm super concerned - I'm 27 and a very normal weight (59 kilos and 5'5") but I've still lost 5 kilos since I got pregnant. I really can't afford to keep this up. I'm 14 weeks pregnant and I'm so scared that I'm going to hurt the baby but I can't seem to stop myself. - Help please!
Does anyone else suffer with cross-addiction? Has anyone suffered with bulimia during pregnancy? It's a scary thing!