I think I have a binge eating disorder.
For as long as I can remember I’ve had issues with food. I’ve spent my whole adult life dieting, being somewhat successful in losing weight (2stone, 4stone) but put it back on and more. I just want to have a healthy mindset with food and eating.
I’m an emotional eater. Celebrating? Get a takeaway! Sad? Get a take away or several large bars of chocolates, cakes, crisps anything. I could easily eat a 6 bag of donuts, 4 pack of cakes, a chocolate bar and not feel full.
If I’m ‘on plan’ SW/WW whatever then I’m so much better with eating and really do enjoy eating vegetables and cooking nice, healthy foods from scratch. It’s like something switches in my mind and I just binge. I don’t ever feel full. Ever.
I’ve tried seeking medical attention but the GPs I’ve spoken to don’t want to know, or aren’t that interested when I say I don’t make myself sick, therefore am not bulimic.
I’ve self referred for NHS counselling for a few things but when I had a telephone conversation with them they said they don’t cover eating disorders. I’m on the waitlist for it anyway.
I just don’t know what to do. I’m nearly 34 and just feel desperate to sort my mind out.
I’m single and live on my own, recently split with a partner I lived with. My eating habits have rapidly declined since that break up. I couldn’t eat how my mind wanted me to infront of him.
Can anyone offer any advice?