Trying to resolve my eating disorder by eating healthily and stopping dieting anyone used this approach?

[LittleMissedTheSunshine]

I've got a long history of binge eating followed by strict dieting to get the weight off and have been able to maintain a normal weight in this way for the last umpteen years, but at massive cost to my psychological and physical health.

I lost about a stone before christmas, as always I thought it would stay off but it wasn't long before I was stuffing my face to the point of feeling sick every night eating massive amounts of junk/sugary food.
Ended up putting on around 20lbs and two dress sizes in 4 months.

Eventually I just thought 'enough... need to break this cycle' and I've committed to a year of healthy eating and in particular, no sugar or junk food. (may do it forever, but committing to a year for now).

I'm eating what my body needs but all healthy food. A bit of the weight has come off, but I'm not pushing it. I've lost about half a stone then plateaud which is very frustrating but I feel in my heart of hearts that it's more important to be healthy and in control of my eating than go back on the binge-diet rollercoaster which has trapped me so long.

I feel like I'm making progress psychologically, I haven't had the urge to binge, I'm not really missing junk food. I'm enjoying getting into healthy eating and making up healthy blends in the nutribullet each morning! And doing regular exercise, not obsessively, just heathily.

Although I'd like more weight to come off, I'm realising that when I lose weight fast, this can encourage my ED as I see it as a license to binge later, telling myself I can just get the weight off again like before. So maybe actually losing weight really slowly is not a bad thing, frustrating though it is.

Has anyone has any success resolving an ED this way? Its such a relief not to be thinking 'diet or binge' every day, but I'm uncomfortable at my current weight, only lost half a stone of the 1.5 stone I gained so still a stone overweight.

This wouldn't work too well for me because I get a bit obsessive too easily but it does sound like you are doing well. But please don;t pursue weight loss, pursue health. Have you come across Health at Every Size (HAES) - worth reading about.

Of course I can totally empathise with wanting to loose weight but its not the path to ED recovery.

I have promised myself that I will never diet again. My background with food is really similar to yours, and I just don’t want to put myself through it any more.
I’ve found a very different and soulful approach with a program called dietary transformation from the inside, by Charles Eisenhower. It’s in several modules and I’m on the second. It’s very thought provoking. Google it and see what you think. It’s free if you’re hard up, but you can donate if you find it valuable.
I’ve also ditched the scales, kind of liberating, kind of terrifying.
All o know is that diets don’t work, and that I’ve fucked my body by so much restricting my food. You wouldn’t know that to look at me though, I’m about 3 stone overweight. Just before Christmas i lost two stone. Arrrgh! There must be a way I can find the balance of respecting my body, eating food I like and being slim, or even slimish.
Good luck with it op

Sorry it’s charles Eisenstein, not Eisenhower. X