I'm not sure whether what I have counts as an eating disorder - but I definitely have a problem with compulsive eating. I think I have a kind of oral fixation.
Basically I HAVE to have something with me to eat or drink at all times - tea, water, coke zero, anything - and obviously also food. I eat not because of boredom or unhappiness - just seem to have to have something in my mouth or a taste in my mouth. Sorry - that sounds so weird!! I have about 6 coke zeros a day, maybe 10 cups of tea and two cups of coffee. And biscuits, grapes, ham - just constant snacks.
I used to be a really addicted smoker - but with huge difficulty managed to beat that about three years ago. And that used to satisfy that urge. But I still always had to have a cup of tea or a coke or something when I wasn't smoking. ANd I can never get into a car or start any kind of journey without either a can of diet drink or a cup of coffee.
Now I don't smoke, I've been substituting cigarettes for food. I'm not overweight - but on the top end of normal - ie edging towards overweight. But I just feel horrible when I eat too much - lethargic and just cross with myself. I have absolutely no self-control at the moment - if I have one jaffa cake it's the whole box. I also think I'm addicted to sugar.
I've done a bit of looking into it - and it seems to often be associated with feeling sad or lonely or bored - but I'm never bored, and am very happy. Wonderful job, fun, kind, husband, lovely house, children, lots of fun friends. I love my life! But I AM feeling upset about the eating thing. I just cannot seem to stop!!
Does this sound like anyone? Or does anyone have any advice?? Would be very grateful.