Bulimia

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I've struggled with bulimia for many years however was in recovery for 2 years before falling pregnant with my now oldest, I had a minor wobble while pregnant with him but managed to stay mostly on track but then I had my youngest and gained more weight which led to a relapse 😔 has anyone else dealt with this??

Yep.me for 30 yrs....I put on 4 stone over 3 years trying to stop...every time I stopped I put more weight on,because I was digesting the food ,obviouslyand that made me panic at the extra weight so it all started again..,so 4 fucking stone.....but I was vomiting up blood regularly huge long strands of it...so on and of ,35 yrs ,since I was 15, of chucking up food,like a dirty little secret,I'd be at the school gates with bloodshot eyes and little spider viains all around my eyes,people would say regularly,are you ok? Have you been crying.and I'd think,no I just threw up my lunch ....one of the hardest things I've had to do in my whole life was stop being sick after meals..ofcourse there's the odd dickhead that loves to tell me I've put weight on...yeah I had noticed is my reply....anyway only you can make you stop...my advice,if you want it,is eat regularly,small amounts,don't over load yr tummy to full ,as you may throw it up.and don't go long between eating as it causes a feeling of wanting to binge..and lastly be prepared to put weight on....I just realised it was going to kill me if I didn't stop..but it took 3 yrs ,and I will never be completely cured ,in times of stress I'm vulnerable to it,.i will always be bulimic ,the minute I relax and say I'm cured ,it will come back.i always have to be ready for it..nasty little bastard of a disease that it is ...good luck x

Hi, me too. 34 and have been bulimic since 15. Just found out I'm pregnant and really want to stop (wanted to before... but it's hard).

Hardest thing is breaking the habit... and deciding not to when you just get that urge!