Over eating and bulimia

[catlover1987]

Not really sure why I'm posting. I suppose I just feel like there's no one I can talk to about this. I have major issues with food. When I was at uni about 8 years ago, I had bulimia. I never got very thin, so not many people knew. I met my husband and he helped me through it. I hadn't made myself sick for many years. Until tonight.

Although I no longer make myself sick, I still binge eat. I do this when my husband is out and go to great lengths to hide it. I hate myself for it and feel awful about it as soon as I've done it.

This weekend, my husband has been away and I have eaten terribly. Tonight I ate so much I did make myself sick in the end. Mainly because I felt so uncomfortably full.

I don't want to be like this. I wish I had a normal relationship with food. I really don't know where to turn. I don't want to tell my husband. I'm too ashamed. Had anyone else overcome binge eating?

I know I'll probably get a lot of judgement and I don't blame you. I already judge myself.

No judgement from me but a handhold from someone who's had both bulimia and anorexia. It's horrible, lonely and really scary.
I needed a specialist ed inpatient admission to overcome my bulimia, it broke the cycle as I had just got to the stage where I thought it was normal to vomit after eating anything. The biggest thing for me in preventing binging was to have a meal plan that met my nutritional needs and included foods that I actually wanted to eat so I didn't feel deprived.

I am in the same situation as you. No judgement here what so ever if this still applies to you I can talk x

You're not alone xxx

Not alone, hand holding x talk to your dh, better or worse vows, don't underestimate his love for all of you ( from a bulimic who understands the shame involved) xx don't let yourself sleepwalk into vomiting again xx