Falling back in

[tmae]

I know it's happening and I don't want to stop it but I know I should. I'm very overweight at the minute but I am in constant motion from big to small back to big again. I want to lose weight but I can never do it sensibly, I'm scared about as I'm breastfeeding and I don't want to ruin that. I don't know what I'm saying really but I just can't talk to anyone.

You can talk to people. How old is your baby?

He is 6 months now, it all started a couple of weeks back and I have now just had gallstones which has stopped me nipping it in the bud as I need to be on a low fat diet - I feel so glad to have an excuse to obsess over food and cut a lot out. At the minute I'm just eating boiled vegetables and fruit and then a bit of plain rice or rice cakes, although adding bits such as plain rice I worry is more to mask the fact I'm not eating properly.

I really don't want to ruin my milk but I can't seem to shake myself out of it. I also don't want to go to a doctor as I think because I'm fat they will just think that I'm talking rubbish.

Sorry for moaning, and thank you for your reply.