I have an eating disorder. I always have really, I know I do. I'll ignore my weight and carry on ignoring the niggling until one day I'll actually look in the mirror and thing "you massive fat horror"
I'm not overweight. I know I'm not. I weight 10st1 and am 5"7.5 so I'm right in a healthy BMI. But when I looked in the mirror the other week I thought that I was wobbly and wanted to tone up and shed pounds. So, I reverted right back to my usual habits, starving myself, and throwing up everything I put in my mouth.
This morning I woke up and my stomach ached, my throat hurt and I felt dizzy and faint I know that isn't healthy so instead I googled healthy weight loss and went to tesco and bought some scales and healthy food.
My goal is to follow my fitness pal and only lose what's healthy to lose as well as working out. I've been doing T25.
For breakfast I've had one egg scrambled dry and a glass of fruit smoothie.
I'm going to keep it down me. I'm not going to fall back into my weird little mix of anorexia and bulimia again. I'm going to stay within the healthy BMI and I'm going to tone up by exercising, not starving.
Except I know I probably won't.
I really want to do it all right this time.
Is anyone else trying to do it right now?
I suppose I'm looking for some support because I'm pretty isolated in RL.
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Eating disorders
Getting it right with an eating disorder
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Hurr1cane · 09/07/2014 10:57
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