I’m lucky enough to be getting IUI on the NHS (same sex couple). First went to GP a year ago and since then it’s felt like my life has been this kind of hazy, limbo state. I really want a baby & it’s mostly all I think about.
I am under 30, but I have low AMH. Every month I know my eggs are depleting and I have this deep sadness about it and have a sense of dread that it’ll never happen.
They have been giving us very unrealistic time estimates from the start, so every now and then they’ll say our treatment will start soon but there is a delay, this makes it harder emotionally.
Most recently we were told October for treatment, but I’ve just been told again it’ll be delayed at least til Christmas because of sperm availability. And our donor could still pull out (excuse the unfortunate pun!) as he is still in the middle of the process. I’m CMV neg so if that happens it’ll be an indefinite amount of time.
As the months go by and I’m getting older (I know I’m still young, but still) and with my low AMH which they do know about, it’s just getting really tiring.
Sorry for the rant, I know I’m in a better position than so many people, just needing to get it off my chest really and I wonder if some of you are in the same boat.