Hello all — I am new. My name is Emma and I just turned 39 years old.

I am single, never married with no children, and I joined today as I had nowhere else to go and if I am being honest, feel so depressed 😞

I suffer with anxiety disorder, and at the moment feeling pretty low with everything.
Since the lockdown in the uk I came to stay with my parents. I started feeling warmer then normal especially at night and with the lockdown I can’t get a blood test. So I am sat feeling miserable with the anxiety that my chances of motherhood are dwindling.
I only got tested less then a year ago and it came back normal.

My ex partner of 17 years left me for another women, with who he wasted no time having a child with. I had always been career focused, and always found it hard to find a new guy.

But I now feel sad that I will never lead a normal life. I had planned to freeze 60 or more of my eggs but I have no idea when that will happen now, and worried if I am premenopausal (not confirmed) if there is any point.
I feel I have just wasted my life.

I have always been regular (in that department), with no issues. But worried as I am unable to meet anyone.

Sorry for the the moan.
I just wanted to speak to people in the same boat...

Thanks
Emma