Feeling lost in my career

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Hi! I’m at such a loss, I feel like I’ve failed because I don’t know what to do with my career.
i recently qualified as a paramedic with a first but being out on the road isn’t for me now I am a mum to a 18 month old covering childcare for shift work is hard even with nursery which is an absolute fortune. The shift work 3 days on 2 nights on then 4 off wasn’t working for my family I was doing 60 hours I was exhausted. and I would really like another baby this shift pattern does not work you have to be married to your job.
I recently started an apprenticeship to become a nurse as I thought a nurse would give me more opportunities. However it’s 4 years Monday - Friday and unsure if the funding will be accessible the whole way. I’m hating being a student again especially at this level and I feel I have so much passion along side knowledge ( yes I do have things to learn I suppose ) but I’m hating starting from the bottom when I’m already a qualified health professional. The MSc Uni route isn’t do able due to finances the student loan wasn’t enough I have a Mortgage to pay. I just want to be with my little girl more! The 5 week days ( not evenings) away from each other is hard and expensive. I’m sure I’m not the only mum who feels like this.
I just don’t know what to do with my carer and I am a loss I’m looking every day for job roles that would suit me still in health care but all gp’s, call clinicians, prisons etc that I could do with my paramedic degree all depend on finishing newly qualified phase which I haven’t and can’t do as it can only be done on ambulance. I suppose I could apply for a job in the call centre as a call handler but that would be at a lower pay.
no point really to this post just looking for some hopeful advice as I feel absolutely awful right now! I don’t know if I am just overly hormonal …

I have no idea if this is a possibility, but could you maybe set up as self-employed teaching first aid? Maybe to businesses, charities, groups of new parents?

You have these skills and qualifications, so try to think of things you could do with them self-employed?

Or sorry, just realised you need to finish the newly qualified part.

How long is the newly qualified bit? I know it's hard, but I really think you need to push on through. Otherwise, you'll never qualify, and all your hard work would have been for nothing.

Once you're qualified it'll open up lots more opportunities. Just remember this bit is not forever.

I’m qualified it’s the preceptorship that’s 2 years I agree it does offer more opportunities atm I’m stuck. Maybe I will change my mind in the future and go back to it it’s just tricky at the moment my whole outlook has changed. Thankyou

I don’t think I made it clear I’m a qualified paramedic and can register with the HCPC but atm can’t really get a job outside ambulance service due to not completing the preceptorship x

How far into your NQP preceptorship are you?
Can you not ask for a family friendly rota? Reduce hours?

We have NQPs in my trust on AH/flexi rostering.
It would be worth just seeing out the NQP phase should you want to progress to more primary care based roles.