Is anybody else struggling a bit? I feel a bit odd. This time of year reminds me of the run up to the pandemic really kicking off. So lots of fear about what would happen. Specifically we were planning for putting our colleagues in to harm's way (I am a non clinical manager)
I look back at things I did in January and feb 2020 and it's a bit like reading about what people did before the war. The world was about to change and we had no idea.
In the event we were preserved from the very worst here. We lost a small number of colleagues (none I knew personally) and had more who had very nasty experiences with it. I did my job and kept going. I do feel a bit like there's some stuff I'm keeping packed away though. I think that's ok. It can get gradually unpacked but I'm just really feeling it just now. I can't say it's 'trauma'. I didn't see anything to be traumatised by. Not like colleagues did. But it's defo a scar.
Anybody know what I mean?