Been separated a long time. He moved out 6 years ago. Stupidly we continued being intimate for a while after...I believed we were working on reconnecting, but it became obvious he was just having his cake and eating it.
Still not divorced, not even started proceedings - for years he was emotionally abusive/threatening his life etc. I've ended up with PTSD and became an absolute shell of a woman...meanwhile he's magically recovered, seeing someone new and appears to be living his best life.
What I was not prepared for this far down the line, was the level of heartbreak I still feel..and the anger is like nothing I've ever known.
I am so so angry: angry he's taken the future I envisaged with our kids (and one day grandkids) Angry I am having to split Birthdays and do separate Xmas.. angry I sometimes don't see my kids every day.
I just keep crying and don't see the point in looking to the future - my future was with him, we were childhood sweethearts and I feel utterly bereft that my life is not how I thought it would be.
I have better days, but on the whole I just feel like I'm filled with anger and sadness most of the time and I'm struggling to find anything to look forward to 😥