So after 20 years , and the past 5 years being thoroughly unhappy I finally took the plunge and told him I want to separate.
Since then it has been bloody awful . He hasn't taken it well. And has gone through a range of moods and emotions as to be expected. Crying, begging, anger, pleading, hating me and now just silence. We are 8 weeks into it at the moment but need to continue to live together until finances and divorce finalised so at least 7 months.
It is very , very hard . Mental health already played a part prior, I almost had a breakdown and have heart issues because I was so unhappy and stressed 24/7. A weight lifted when I told him but now I just feel the same again as every day I am living in a high state if anxiety and stress
Its so uncomfortable. We dont speak to each other unless completely necessary. We need to share some spaces and when we do we sit in silence. Its bloody awful.
Luckily we have seperate bedrooms so I grt a break at night but when I wake each morning i get an instant feeling of dread and doom and dont want to get up. Neither of us are working at the moment (off sick) so we are in the house 24/7. He never goes out. I find myself trying to go out at every opportunity to have some breathing space but I cant be out permanently.
Any tips or advice from people who are also needing to live together? Will it get better over time? If this carries on throughout my health is going to be irreparable damaged. Im already on BP tablets, beta blockers and anti depressants because of it. This split was supposed to be helping our situation and now I feel worse