I think that after many years of misery things have reached breaking point and my husband is talking about divorce officially. I know the word gets thrown around a lot but he really does display narcissistic behaviour. My therapist suggested I look into it after telling her some things. I hadn’t thought about it that way before but ever since there’s a clear pattern. I’m terrified of leaving as th whole point of staying was to protect my children from him as much as possible. He won’t accept anything less than 50/50, even though I don’t believe he will actually do his half. I worry about the kids and what he’s saying g to them and most of all I’m terrified my kids will either turn against me, furn into narcissists themselves, or be fundamentally damaged by him. It’s my biggest fear abd something I’ve tried to prevent by staying. He believes everything is my fault and he says the relationship is toxic. I can live with the fact that he will paint this story to his friends and relatives but I can’t live with him telling my kids it. It’s not true. I’m so scared of what will happen and wish I could stop it but i believe I have no legs to stand on in any other custody agreement and the courts will favour 50:50. After telling me his mental health was really bad because of me, he’s now performing Disney dad with the kids w hi stonewalling me. It just doesn’t add up and all feel so calculated and cruel. He knows what he’s doing but will deny it if I point it out. Honestly, it just gives me such fear about him using the kids as pawns - boh to get back at me and to prove what a great dad he is. Any hope I can cling on to? And advise?