I have 2 wonderful children & I’m coming out of a marriage to a narcissist who for the past 3 years has berated me, accusing me of being controlling, inadequate in the bedroom (mentioned at marriage counselling) and for 2 years verbally attacked and demeaned me.
I have a successful career, financed a lot to do with the house & loved him very much. He announced several years ago that he wished to separate however did nothing to move forward with this. I attempted to reconcile, booked marriage counselling etc, but every session he berated me for an hour & a half & eventually decided to stop the sessions.
I got my solicitor to initiate a separation agreement last year and he has stalled. I feel like a total mess as can’t move on as he’s still in the house & 2 weeks ago admitted he was seeing someone but didn’t work out. I also think he has had several other affairs.
I wonder will I ever rise above this as it’s so consuming. I wonder will I ever have a life again and look at others that seem so happy? I feel so miserable but want to be a better Mother to my 2 beautiful children but wonder will life ever get better? I feel like I’m drowning & trying to convince myself that things will improve once he moves out. Has anyone felt like this? Hated themselves because their husband had an affair on them? Any inspiration on how to navigate this difficult path for both myself & 2 beautiful children?
Sorry for the long post 🤦🏻♀️❤️🥰