I CANNOT WAIT TO LEAVE THIS MAN!
I have been poorly with norovirus for the past 3 days. He has done nothing but lay in bed until 11/12 after going to the casino all night whilst I’m left with the kids feeling so horrific to even function, he hasn’t thought for one second to clean or tidy anything to help me or help me to rest, nothing is done for Christmas because if I don’t do it no one does, he’s currently lounging in the bath (11.10am, I’ve been up since 5 with the kids) after finally getting up for the day and complaining if someone opens a door or window because it makes him cold!!!! He’s meant to be going out with the kids so I can get some wrapping done and actually get a bit of peace, they’re sat here waiting and I am just absolutely raging! I needed to vent.
i cannot wait to be free of this life, no matter what anger, childish behaviour, gaslighting whatever comes from when I tell him I do not care anymore I’m so very DONE this time. 1 month until I can get the keys to my place and then tell him we are over.
Knowing this is the last Christmas/NY period living here with his shitty behaviour is so freeing already. Whatever comes my way in terms of his behaviour during the breakup at least I’ll have my safe calm space to shut him out and I cannot wait.
To those others like me who are keeping the peace for your kids, we’re almost there just one more Christmas to go.