I really don't know what to do.
I moved far , and waited many years long distance relationship. We have four children between us. Two are from his previous marriage. I have 22 yr old and 2yr old both have their challenges. We all live together plus MIL Youngest has a lot of health problems,concerns and since moving here, he has had better care treatment, team of people. We dont seem to work well as as a team. In fainness i feel hurt. My mil dislikes me, and some of his family. I feel hurt as i have nothing but love and good intentions for my partner our four children / family. He doesnt hardly comminicate, doesnt show love and care. I dont feel loved by him. He treated my eldest different for many months now, even bad mouthed me. Wasnt anything major, but enough. I give my all. It never is good enough. I feel let down , hurt, i appreciate we have a lot on our plate. However i feel incedibly alone, unheard, not cared and appreciated. We always said we treat all four the same. I am not seeing this. No intemacy in about 6months, no end in sight. I still have a place in yorkshire i rent, which i havent given up its also where my dad is, i live 300miles away now. Eldest is vulnerable and needs care. I suffer badly with chronic pain and really bad with my mental health. He proposed to me 3 years ago and since barely mentioned. Im so warn down and feel selfish to even consider leaving. He says he loves me. Im starting to think love might not be enough sadly.