Hi mums, a bit of context.
2 weeks ago I came down with influenza A and when I say it hit me hard my god it did, and then when I wasn’t expecting it BANG iron deficiency anaemia with all the trimmings. Heart palps, weakness, fatigue. All that goes.
I spent a couple of days in and out of hospital and due to not eating with the flu I had a hypo, and all of my friends were working (very small village) so because I needed to go to hospital and had no energy to get there on own although I didn’t want to I rang my ex husband the father of my kids.
He took me to hospital and grabbed my prescriptions for me while I was there of all my strong iron supplements to get my levels back up. I appreciated this so much. I was so poorly and felt so vulnerable I asked him if I could stay on the couch at his because I didn’t want to be away from my children. I feel so stupid for this, I felt so vulnerable and drained and poorly and didn’t want to be alone.
This man had an affair on me, financially abused me and controlled me, has stalked me round work (nursery our kids attend), looked through my windows in my home and just make me overall uncomfortable so I don’t know why I even did this when he’s put me through hell. He withholds the children’s clothes when he shared parent, I have to beg for the schedule and days and times he has the kids. He’s now asking me to sign documents for our marital home to say I don’t live there anymore. I’ve told him I’d prefer to speak to a solicitor first.
I'm starting to feel a little bit more human and I’ve been taking my iron since Monday and have noticed I’m feeling slightly better, but I’m scared that my ex is going to use this against me as I had to ask him for help and for him to have the kids an extra night as I was sick. I have been the primary parent for both since they were born as he was never really around, oldest has autism. I’m scared he’s going to try and say I haven’t been a fit mother as I’ve had to spend a week and a half at home and not really take the kids out, they have lots to do here including a giant climbing frame in the attic, I’m not sure if I’m just freaking out. I’ve seen his family in a previous custody battle and they weren’t nice to the mother of the kids and tried getting custody. I have reports from nursery and all the other professionals supporting my little girl saying how proactive I am with her needs and care, I’m the only parent who deals with appointments and EHCP, I’m the only parent that takes nappies in to nursery for both my children, buys their clothes. I feel extremely guilty for being off my feet poorly but I am getting there slowly. Just needed to get this off my chest 😣