I am really struggling and I don’t know who to turn to or what to do.
i have been in my current relationship for 6 years and we have a 1 year old son together. Our relationship has had a lot of ups and downs and we’ve separated a few times, but never for long.
in many ways he is the best partner I’ve ever had he’s kind, generous and dotes on me. But he can be very nasty, he has huge mood swings and I never know what to expect. I feel like I walk on eggshells around him a lot of the time as any small criticism can make him angry. He lies a lot, mainly about drinking as he knows I don’t like it. Both our parents were addicts and so I am super sensitive to any addictive behaviour around our son.
He’s also really pushy for sex even if we’ve been arguing all day he will come to bed and harass me and if I say no, as sex is more of an emotional connection for me he will get moody and we argue. So most of the time I just give in.
I used to go to friends and family when things were bad and talk things through for clarity but my family love him and always advice me to stay with him and my friends get bored of listening and think we should break up.
i feel like I’ve given so many chances and he desperately wants to stay together so agrees to anything I say when we are close to breaking up but no change is ever sustained and he doesn’t stick at counselling or not drinking for long. I don’t think he actually sees any issue with his anger and drinking but just agrees with me to save the relationship.
Am I being an idiot should we break up or is this normal. I feel constantly unsure of myself now.