I am currently 4 months pp with my first child and have never been so unhappy with my relationship. She is both our first child and we have been together for 6 years now, however my partner came out of prison after 2 years when she was 7 weeks old. We have grown up with eachother and we have always got through everything but just not feeling like it will happen this time or if I even want to. He treat me so amazing whilst he was inside and said he was a changed man and I really believed him as I know he’s a good person and even tho he’s not doing anything he was before that he went to prison for, so he has changed in that sense, he’s not being so shitty with me.
The day we left the hospital he spoke to me like shit as we were leaving, yes we were both sleep deprived but I would never do that with him consider I had just given birth over 3 days, which ruined the whole experience for me. He’s always making belittling comments calling me fat then saying he’s joking. I have a business which I’m very proud of, that I started whilst he was inside and 6 days after giving birth I was back at it even being by myself with my daughter as I have no family and I still am now but he drags me down saying that’s all I care about instead of her which of course I don’t it’s just my income and I do it for a better life for us all. He makes me feel guilty all the time but never helps out, I’m the only one who gets up in the night as he claims he can’t hear her, when I get back from work I get her as soon as I walk through the door I also get her to sleep and up early and sorted for the day he does not. When we go out it’s me that’s making sure she has everything but he’s just on his phone 24/7, to the point other people have said that all he does is gone on his phone. He has such a short temper with me and belittles me constantly even tho im doing the best I can.
I am also dealing with health issues physically and mentally after the birth which I kept to myself as I am strong headed and dont like to talk about my feelings, however I opened up to him and he was insta ing at first but now uses it against me and says im crazy and that the issues are because of my PPD which they aren’t at all. He doesn’t appreciate me I do all the cleaning, I pay for a lot and I do most stuff with our daughter.
I do love him as he’s my family and my best friend and I know he’s struggling with adjusting to getting out and now having a child but I don’t think I can put up with much more, I admit I am short tempered and stressed but I was absolutely fine until he came home and now I’m so depressed I’m starting to scare myself as I have no one to talk to.
not really sure where I’m going with this but I just need advice on what to do as I know he’s a good person he’s just selfish and doesn’t like to talk accountability at all.
if anyone could give me advice I would really appreciate it thankyou😊