I feel completely broken.
My (28M) husband and I (28F) have been together over 8 years and married for 2. He has had a lot of trauma to deal with and I've always been the one to support him through it, which i've been happy to do, I just had no idea how much energy it had taken out of me. I feel like it's completely emotionally and mentally drained me.
A few months ago I met a new temporary collegue and although absolutely no boundaries were crossed by either party, the connection/chemistry we had was insane, we lost hours and hours talking about everything and nothing all at once and it just felt so effortless, light and good and he saw me in ways and cared for me in ways that my husband has never been able to due to his own emotions being so big and overwhelming. It feels like that connection has woken me up when I didn't even know I was sleeping. It's made me realise i've completely lost myself and love for life while i've been responsible for my husband and holding his life in my hands (he's told me over and over he'd end his own life if I wasn't around).
I just don't know if I have anything left to give but I equally don't know if I can put him through the pain of seperating when he has been through way more than anyone ever deserves.
I'm worried i've got to the point where my mental and emotional capacity to hold our lives together has run so dry it can't ever recover.