Please tell me it gets better

[Smithy37]

Just this really…
I left a 12 year marriage at the start of the year after just being unhappy for 8 years and realising I was trying to fit into a mold of someone I was never going to be….I don’t miss him at all…
However, I am crippled on a daily basis with the most severe anxiety. I’m on medication to help me through, but I have the most awful fear of the future. What will it look like..how will I be on my own etc. Some days I feel so low I just don’t know how I manage to get through the days.
i think I just need to hear that everything will eventually start to feel better. I definitely miss the family unit of having someone in the house. I have my beautiful daughter a week on and a week off…and miss her dreadfully when I don’t see her and feel so lonely. But she is so happy and thriving and that brings me peace. But I just wish I could calm this horrific anxiety. I am on meds and beta blockers but nothing seems to be helping. I’m starting therapy on Wednesday next week to try to process all of this…I lost my daughter 12 years ago and don’t think I’ve really processed the at either….i just wondered if I could have a little hand hold please 😥

Hand hold from me 🤗
It does get better, 10 millions times better.
Last night I went round my friend’s house and we had a beer in the garden and laughed our heads off till gone 9, the dog and I came back slowly and that feeling of not having to explain/warn you’ll be late was so so good. Had and apple and a shower then went to bed. Not a single fuck given. Bliss.
You’ll get there

Handhold from me too! Firstly I'd like to commend your strength and courage to leave a relationship that wasn't right for you, it takes big balls! Anxiety is such a dreadful thing to deal with, especially if it is fuelled by fear. Start a gratitude journal. Write down 10 good things about being on your own each day/things you look forward to i.e inner peace, personal space, making new friends, etc. Sometimes it's going to feel like you have to dig really deep to find anything to feel positive about, but keep digging. And I know it sounds cliche, but just try it. There is a Neuroscientist called Dr. Caroline Leaf who talks about the benefits of actual pen to paper methods to calm down anxiety. I turned to this too a couple of years ago when my anxiety turned into fibromyalgia, I personally really benefitted from it. Good luck xx