Ex blaming me for failed marriage.everday it hits me that he ended the marriage I'm traumatised. I still love him
I did some things I regret I threw a mug not hard and I slammed a few doors not all the time , and I raised my voice abit not loudly this wasn't all the time. I really didn't mean to do all those things I was feeling extremely emtional .I want my marriage back but it's dead he said he had no feeling s for me he punched a big whole threw the door and called me a worthless cunt.
He said you talk about your feelings when I was trying to discuss it I said yes I talk about my feelings he said there was no bond .I said I wanted to hold his hand but didn't he rolled his eyes .I went to my friend jenny she called him a nassarstist to his face she did this twice I begged her not to go but she didn't listen I was talking to jenny about the relationship
I went to my friend Cody I told her he was being abusive she told jenny jenny told him he said he didn't love me .he told a couples counsellor he didn't love me, I was upset.he shut the door in my face once and often said out my room when I was talking to him .
I raised my voice out of distress he pointed his finger and said no we were in a tent and I said I wanted the good times back he said I ruined the time in the tent I was explaining I didn't mean to he said enough stop go he tried to get me out the tent I was talking to him for a while on and off that afternoon he said I was going on I had a lot to say
I spoke to him till 2am trying to sort the marriage out he said he couldn't stand me he said I'm too big he likes skinny girls he hadn't touched me in 2 years . I tried to hold his hand he said I made his skin crawl I said I just want to feel loved he said me me me I showed him a lovely pic of me he said me me me .I said something rude I didn't mean to I said I didn't care about his video s he mocked me I raised my voice in distress he said he's not putting up with it I said I didn't mean to he said I was playing the victim.i only ever raised my voice in distress and I didn't mean to throw the mug or slam the door it I feel bad I wish I hadn't gone to jenny s and Cody's