Hi all. Can someone please give me some advice. I am 34F and 2 weeks ago my husband of one year decided that he wanted a divorce. I am absolutely devastated by this as we only got our house 8 months ago. We were planning on having children and now my whole life feels like it is crumbling around me. This was my first ever relationship and I don't know how to cope with the overwhelming grief and fear that I feel. I don't know what to do. I feel distraught and I don't know how to cope or move on.
I really wanted to be a mother and loved being part of a couple and I feel like my dreams of being a wife and mother have been smashed into pieces. I have never liked the idea of online dating and since the relationship started my friends have moved to different cities so my social network is incredibly small. In so many ways my husband was my equal and my life partner and the loss is unbearable for me. I've tried to reconcile with my husband but he's not meeting with me and has not seen me for 3 weeks now. Is it normal to be playing the good parts of the relationship on repeat now - i feel terrified because I never thought he would do this to me and now he's left me and im on my own back with parents which i find embarrasing at this age.
Can anyone share their stories of starting over in the mid 30s as I am absolutely terrified of having lost my marriage but also the thought of never being a wife and mum again.