Hello,
Namechanged to post. In case someone recognises me, I guess.
I honestly am not sure why I'm even posting. I just don't know how I got here and this is my life now.
My husband announced a few weeks ago he wants to separate. Since then it's come out that he has been seeing someone else. He's been an absolute ass at every opportunity. Highlights include: expecting me to pay him £40 to keep the drinking glasses in our home (he's moving out). Already booked a holiday with OW and her kid (and our kids) to go abroad in May - he introduced them to her before they even knew we were separating. Etc.
We have two kids, age 5 (just) and 2 (literally just). And I just can not get over the fact that I'm not going to see my kids everyday. Or that they will have two homes. Or that this is even my life. It all feels like it's happening to someone else. I just feel so... Numb. I don't know.
I think the thing that really pisses me off is that if he had spent even a tiny bit of the last year or so booking holidays or helping with the kids, the housework, the mental load, the sleep deprivation etc in literally any way I don't think we would be here.
We were together for 11 years and I was blindsided. How will I ever trust anyone ever again?
Would love to hear some stories from the other side because right now I feel like I'm simultaneously drowning and unable to feel a thing.