Divorce with 2 toddlers

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Anyone whose divorced with two very young children or babies.

What was the hardest parts to deal with?
How long till things felt ok?
Also what bits made you feel relieved/great?

Last question.
Did you ever regret the decision?

My twins were barely 1 and my eldest in reception when my ex husband left.

It wasn't my decision to divorce so I can't really comment on the relief but I suppose I'm relieved that he didn't drag it out - from announcing he couldn't back it to moving out was only 2 weeks

I do 99.99% of the parenting - he has sporadic contact and no overnights - I'm relieved I don't have to give up any time with my children but that comes with its own challenges in that life is relentless and lonely and often overwhelming

For the first 12 months I think I was in crisis management mode so just got on with it. Felt fine. Year 1-2 came the anger and now years 2-3 I think I'm ok. Divorce was done within 6 months so at least that wasn't drawn out.
I feel sad still. And I've had to grieve the man I thought I'd married and who I spent two decades with. It's like that man has died. And I've had to grieve for the future I thought we'd have and the United family I thought we'd have.

I've had to come to terms with the fact I now can't/won't be the mum I thought I could be as I'm doing it all alone whilst working full time and I'm exhausted and have less patience and feel like I'm much less "fun" and easygoing as I used to be x