Just looking for emotional support really and whether anyone else been through or going through similar as feeling pretty alone right now..... Im older, in my 50's and been married over 30 years, been mostly stay at home mum but also worked part time in husbands business, which I was/am a Parter in. Things not been right for years, but haven't rocked the boat because of kids etc. Finally had enough and suggested separation and that's when things got worse. It ended up with Police getting involved and me fleeing home. I stayed with friends and he ended up getting arrested and then charged and later pleading guilty to stalking and harassment, to which he got a suspended sentence, fine and two year restraining order. I now realise (through a lot of support) that my whole relationship was abusive and I was being coercively controlled. Anyway, I applied for divorce 18 months ago and all the way along he has refused to engage, hasn't returned paperwork, was issued with a Penal Notice and another fine by the court. BUT he still seems to be living his life like nothing has happened!! He has cut me off completely financially, I haven't seen any money from the partnership, but got landed with a 4k tax bill for money I have never even seen (I haven't paid it and I can't, so revenue aware) I am having to live off grid because I am afraid of him finding me and he is still living at former home (with a new woman) and carrying on like I never existed. I have been informed by the court that because nothing has been remotely agreed, there will be a final financial hearing in the Spring. He has been having the opportunity to spend/hide money and won't supply anything etc. I'm not sure what I am asking really, just wanted to vent in the hope that someone might have some thoughts as I feel so useless and stupid over everything. Thank you for reading.